Showing posts with label The Road Back. Show all posts
Showing posts with label The Road Back. Show all posts

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

9 Minutes of Your Time, Please?

Two videos of people going through Klonopin withdrawal. Please take 9 minutes of your time to watch and listen to what these people are saying. This is exactly what I went through when I stopped Klonopin cold turkey (had to go back on to taper down safely later though). I know it's a lot to ask people to stop and take 9 minutes to understand what's going on with people who are trying to get off medication they trusted doctors with, but please do it. If you know doctors who can start learning about benzodiazepines, please forward these videos to them. Hopefully one day there will be more doctors who are willing to say that this is not okay. There are many videos, but I just picked out two for now:

For the next one, you might have to turn up the audio:






The videos can be found HERE and HERE.

Please also pray for them and for anyone suffering through benzodiazepine withdrawal. It can last months or years. It's much worse than any street drug and is killing people too. A helpful resource is The Road Back Program where you can learn to taper off benzodiazepines (and other psychotropic drugs) safely. Thank you for your 9 minutes.

My other blogs can be found HERE and HERE.

The original post for this daily diary began HERE.

Coram Deo,
Tamara Slack

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

003 Current Supplements List

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October 23, 2009
003

Some have asked what supplements I need to take for the adrenal problems and Klonopin withdrawl. Ready for a long list? Okay, here's what I mailed to my doctor last month. He agreed I should be on all of them except maybe the fiber (which I've deleted from the list) and the Beta 1,3D Glucan (for immune system) which I did cut out of the regimen. There are a couple notes I've made about which supplements I no longer take all the time such as the protein powder, but the rest of the list is what I take daily.

We did add the Licorice Root Powder four days ago which I put at the bottom of this list. I hope this helps someone out there who is looking for resources about where to purchase good supplements. Our cost to keep me "going" is a lot more than I'd like it to be, but there are no other options. My body is a wreck from this disease and from the withdrawals so here goes (I provided the link to where I purchase my supplements; just click on the name of the product):
  • Klonopin. At 0.75mg a day now; have been tapering for a year and a half now. I am able to taper 6% each month without going through seizures and such. It will take many months to get off at this rate unless I can support my adrenals more – that may help me get off it at 12% - 16%. I have no doctor to refill prescription so that I may continue withdrawing safely; I’m hoping I’ll get help with the adrenals and thyroid so I can taper faster and get done with this.

  • Isocort. 2 pellets 3 times daily spread out throughout the day evenly. (Bezwecken)

  • Vitamin C. Every 3 hours (TRB product: “Nature’s C”) NOTE: In October, I changed to a Vitamin C that is less expensive for me. It's probably not as good, but it's what we have to go with right now. I get a Vegetarian Vitamin C from our local health food store and take 500mg every 3 hours.

  • Vitamin E. 800 IU daily. (Product: “Unique E”). This bottle lasts a few months.

  • Pantothenic Acid. 500mg 3 times daily.

  • Calcium / Magnesium / Vitamin D3. (TRB product: “CalsiumD”). My lab results from February, 2009 showed low Vitamin D3 and another lab result prior to this date showed low Magnesium.

  • Omega 3. 4 daily. Per softgel: Omega 3 Fatty Acids 630mg, EPA 400mg, DHA 200mg

  • Beta-1, 3D Glucan. 2 daily for helping immune system. (TRB product: same name). Per my doctor's advide, I am no longer taking this. It's a great product though. Here's some information about how it helps with the immune system and helps with anxiety.

  • Organic Passionflower Powder. 200mg every 4 hours or as necessary for nervousness and insomnia. (Mountain Rose Herbs). I purchased an 8 oz. package and it will will last many months. I use vegetarian capsules I purchase at my local health food store for this bulk herb.

  • Tart Cherry Concentrate. 1 tsp. every 4 hours or as needed for anxiety / withdrawals. At bed and at 4:30am, I take almost 1 oz. (Pure Planet product). I purchase this for $6.00 less at my local health food store.

  • Trace Minerals Drops. 20 drops daily. Equals ¼ C Sea Water, sodium removed. (Liquimins ConcenTrace Ionic product)

  • Protein. 1 tsp. every 3 hours or as needed for hypoglycemia (TRB product: “Essential Protein Formula”) NOTE: Now taking this only when my blood sugar has dropped too low, not every 3 hours.

  • Sea Salt. ¾ to 1 tsp. daily. Helps heart palps (Product: REAL Salt)

  • Progesterone. 10-15mg daily 10 days prior to menstruation. (Women’s Therapeutic Institute: Progestelle)

  • Licorice Root Powder. 1/4 C in the morning (Clymer Healing Research Center)

My other blogs can be found HERE and HERE. The original post for this daily diary began HERE.

Coram Deo,

Tamara Slack

Thursday, February 26, 2009

Side Effects of Klonopin


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Tamara Slack

I don't write much on this blog. I have a couple others that I try to keep updated (you can read them at: Grace Abounds and Sew And Stitch), but when I find something that I believe would be helpful for others to make informed decisions or give updates on what's going on with my health in regards to the benzodiazepine I was prescribed 13 years ago, I try to updated it. Today, I found the side effects list for Klonopin. Why oh why did I not read the little print before the lady put the pill in my mouth?

Today I was reading an email from "The Road Back" program. They are helping me with supplements and a pre-taper program as I get off this very addictive medication (I know, I know, doctors say you can get off it in 6 weeks, but then why are people suffering so much like this lady?). I thank Jesus for The Road Back people! I have been to numerous doctors over the years and hospitals. You know they never, ever asked me about nutrition? Isn't that amazing? I could be eating rubber tires and drinking window cleaner for all they knew. It matters not. They are trained to find the problem and fix it with little pills. Little pills make big money, did 'ya know?

I just want to post the side effects of the medication my central nervous system is still addicted to (no I am not a junkie - but boy that would be a LOT easier than getting off a doctor-approved medication!). If this helps one person make an informed decision about this medication, I will be a happy gal! Since I'm not a doctor and cannot tell you not to take Klonopin, I'll just tell you what I go through on a daily basis:

*** hypoglycemia (low blood sugar)

*** "female" problems
*** endocrine problems
*** confusion
*** tremors (please watch short video on that here)
*** hyper sensitive to cleaning chemicals (i.e. bleach... can't breathe, chest tightens, become fatigued, heart palpitations. Have had to change all cleaning agents to natural products)
*** blurred eyes
*** increased appetite
*** early perimenopause
*** loss of balance (yes, I have "fallen" into my walls even at home!)
*** thoughts like I'm not even "here" (VERY weird and scary)
*** fatigue / exhausted
*** suicidal thoughts and tendencies (I refer you to this video
here, children are killing themselves on the medicines doctors are giving them)
*** nausea
*** severe mood swings like from happy and joyous to raging anger (I'm so sad for my husband, really)
*** tearfulness (all of a sudden, I cry for NO reason and can't stop crying. Nothing sets it off; it is something biological happening to me)
*** body pain all over (usually lasts a few days and then I don't have the pain for another week or whenever it decides to come back. No massages or anything help)
*** inability to leave the house
*** muscle weakness
*** panic attacks
*** dry mouth
*** heart palpitations
*** pain in the chest and esophogus
*** adrenal fatigue (adrenal glands are severely messed up!)
*** weight gain (went from size 12 to size 20)
*** increase PMS / PMDD problems
*** strange fears
*** racing thoughts (can't stop this and feels like going crazy - doesn't last forever though)
*** migraines
*** pain in fingers and hands
*** memory problems
*** I forgot what I was going to type here (JUST KIDDING! Just the memory problems!)
*** left side of body a little numb and left leg sometimes not working
*** jaw pain
*** nightmares
*** insomnia
*** boxy tight stomach
*** heaviness in limbs
*** tight band feeling around my head
*** flu symptoms (without the flu!)
*** and more!

It's quite amazing... I went in because I was a single mom, working full time with very little help and no support (emotional, physical, or financial) from my son's father and had my son at age 17. You think the doctors would say, "you know, I think you are stressed." No, no, they said, "you have bipolar, a mood disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder, and borderline personality disorder" and said I had to take these pills for the rest of my life, will have to increase them and that I might actually commit suicide. Not the greatest of hope, huh? My doctors are all fired. Figuring since my great-grandmother killed herself and she was on Valium (a medication not nearly as strong as the Klonopin I'm on) and three other people in my family committed suicide, I figured I was doomed to shoot myself in the head someday or inhale the exhaust from my car. I did try after I got on the medication, but it didn't work (THANK GOD! I really do because I would have died in my sins, unforgiven. I had not repented of my sin and trusted Christ back then so I was not born again). Anyway...

Below is the side effects list for Klonopin (are we really supposed to take things that do this to us?):

SIDE EFFECTS OF KLONOPIN

CARDIAC DISORDERS

Palpitation - Perceptible forcible pulsation of the heart, usually with an increase in frequency or force, with or without irregularity in rhythm.

Tachycardia - Rapid heart rate.

EAR AND LABYRINTH DISORDERS

Ear pain - Any pain connected to the inner or outer portion of the ear.

Tinnitus - A sound in one ear or both ears, such as buzzing, ringing, or whistling, occurring without an external stimulus and usually caused by a separate condition, such as the use of benzodiazepines.

Vertigo - A sensation of irregular or whirling motion, either of oneself or of external objects.

EYE DISORDER

Blurred vision - Compared to normal, a distortion of vision.

Mydriasis - Prolonged abnormal dilation of the pupil of the eye induced by a rug or caused by disease.

Photophobia - An abnormal sensitivity to or intolerance of light, especially by the eyes, as may be caused by eye inflammation. An abnormal fear of light.

GASTROINTESTIONAL DISORDERS

Abdominal pain -Pain between the chest and pelvis, stomach, intestines, liver, spleen, and pancreas.

Constipation - Difficulty having normal bowel movement.

Diarrhea - Excessive and frequent evacuation of watery feces.

Dry mouth - When the mouth is dry beyond what might be normal.

Dyspepsia - Disturbed digestion; indigestion.

Dysphagia - Difficulty in swallowing or inability to swallow.

Nausea - A feeling of sickness with the urge to vomit.

Pharyngolaryngeal syndrome - Of or pertaining to the larynx or pharynx.

Salivary hypersecretion - A continual or excessive amount of saliva that us uncontrollable.

Vomiting - Ejecting all or part of the stomach contents.

GENERAL DISORDERS

Asthenia - Loss or lack of bodily strength.

Chest tightness - A feeling in the chest of contraction.

Edema - An accumulation of an excessive amount of watery fluid in cells, tissues, or serous cavities.

Fatigue - The body feeling drained of energy

Feeling drunk - Feelings associated with drinking too much alcohol.

Feeling hot or cold - An uncontrollable feeling of being too hot or cold that is abnormal for the temperature.

Feeling jittery - An uneasy feeling often associated with the inability to remain still.

Hangover - Feeling like the day after consuming too much alcohol. All or a few hangover sensations may be present.

Increased energy - An abnormal amount of energy bordering on hyperness.

Loss of control of legs - Inability to control legs, such as restless leg syndrome.

Malaise - A vague feeling of bodily discomfort, as at the beginning of an illness.

Pyrexia - Fever

Rigors - Shivering or trembling, as caused by a chill. A state of rigidity in living tissues or organs that prevents response to stimuli.

Sluggishness - A fatigue type feeling or dull.

Thirst - An abnormal sensation of needing liquid.

Weakness - A reduced state of normal energy and stamina.

INFECTIONS AND INFESTATIONS

Influenza symptoms - The body feeling and at times the manifestation of flue like symptoms.

Upper respiratory tract infections - Infection of the nose, sinuses, pharynx (part of neck and throat) or larynx (commonly known as the voice box).

MENTAL DISORDERS

Abnormal dreams - Nightmares or dreams that are upsetting to the individual.

Aggression - Hostile or destructive behavior or actions.

Agitation - A feeling where something or anything could set a person toward anger or combativeness.

Anger - Uncontrollable and volatile emotion with rage; usually an attempt to stop someone or something.

Anxiety - A state of uneasiness and apprehension, as about future uncertainties. A state of intense apprehension, uncertainty, and fear resulting from the anticipation of a threatening event or situation, often to a degree that normal physical and psychological functioning is disrupted.

Apathy - A feeling of no hope, such as if anything can be done it would not work.

Bradyphrenia - A slowness of the mind.

Confusion - An impaired orientation with respect to time, place or the form of an event.

Depersonalization - A state in which the normal sense of personal identity and reality is lost, characterized by feelings that one's actions and speech cannot be controlled.

Depressed mood - A lowering of the state of mind or emotion compared to what a person normally feels.

Depression - A feeling of no hope.

Derealization - The feeling that things in one's surroundings are strange, unreal, or somehow altered, as seen in schizophrenia.

Disorientation - A loss of sense of direction, position, or relationship with one's surroundings. A temporary or permanent state of confusion regarding place, time or personal identity.

Dysphonia - An emotional state marked by anxiety, depression, and restlessness.

Euphoric mood - A feeling of great happiness or well-being, commonly exaggerated and not necessarily well founded.

Hallucination - False or distorted perception of objects or events with a compelling sense of their reality, usually resulting from a traumatic life event or drugs.

Homicidal ideation - The formation of the idea or having the mental image of murder.

Hypomania - A mild form of mania, characterized by hyperactivity and euphoria.

Impulse control - A sudden pushing or driving force. A sudden wish or urge that prompts an unpremeditated act or feeling; an abrupt inclination.

Insomnia - Chronic inability to fall asleep or remain asleep for an adequate length of time.

Irritability - 1. The capacity to respond to stimuli. 2. Abnormal or excessive sensitivity to stimuli of organism, organ, or body part.

Libido decreased - Sexual desire decreased.

Libido increased - Sexual desire increased.

Logorrhea - Incoherent talkativeness.

Mania - A manifestation of bipolar disorder characterized by profuse and rapidly changing ideas, exaggerated gaiety, and excessive physical activity.

Mood swings - The up and or down movement of emotions that are uncontrollable.

Nervousness - Easily agitated or distressed.

Nightmare - A dream creating intense fear, horror, and distress.

Psychomotor retardation - The retardation of movement and or mental process.

Restlessness - An uneasy feeling of not being able to be where one is located comfortably.

Suicidal ideation - The formation of an idea or mental image of killing one self.

METABOLISM AND NUTRITION DISORDERS

Anorexia - Loss of appetite, usually including a fear of becoming obese or a aversion toward food.

Appetite decreased - A decrease in the feeling one needs food for survival.

Appetite increased - An increase of the desire for food for survival.

MUSCULOSKELETAL AND CONNECTIVE TISSUE DISORDERS

Arthralgia - Severe pain in a joint.

Back pain - An unexplained pain anywhere in the back.

Muscle cramps - Muscle being contracted to the point of discomfort.

Muscle twitching - A rhythmic or irregular involuntary movement of any muscle.

Myalgia - Muscular pain or tenderness, especially when nonspecific.

Pain in limb - Pain in arm or leg.

NERVOUS SYSTEM DISORDERS

Amnesia - The loss or impairment of memory.

Ataxia - Loss of the ability to coordinate muscular movement.

Coordination abnormal - Maintaining balance of the body difficult in comparison to what is normal for the person.

Disturbance in attention - Not able to remain as focused as one was able to in the past.

Dizziness - A disorienting sensation such as faintness, light-headedness, or unsteadiness.

Dysarthria - Difficulty in articulating words due to emotional stress or to paralysis or incorordination of the muscles used in speaking.

Dyskinesia - An impairment in the ability to control movements, characterized by spasmodic or repetitive motions of lack of coordination.

Headache - A continual or time specific duration with pressure or pain within the head.

Hypersomnia - A condition in which one sleeps for an excessively long time but is normal in the waking intervals.

Hypoesthesia - Drowsiness.

Hypotonia - Reduced tension or pressure, as of the intraocular fluid in the eyeball. Relaxation of the arteries.


Memory impairment - Not able to recall an instance from the past as well as before.

Mental impairment - The ability to think and reason diminished.

Paresthesia - A skin sensation, such as burning, prickling, itching, or tingling.

Sedation - An over expression of reduction of anxiety, stress, irritability or excitement.

Seizures - A sudden attack, spasm, or convulsion, as in epilepsy.

Sleep apnea - A temporary cessation of breathing while sleeping.

Sleep taking - Speaking words while asleep.

Somnolence - A state of drowsiness; sleepiness. A condition of semi-consciousness approaching coma.

Stupor - A state of impaired consciousness characterized by a marked diminution in the capacity to react to environmental stimuli.

Syncope - A brief loss of consciousness caused by a sudden fall of blood pressure or failure of cardiac systole, resulting in cerebral anemia.

Tremor - An involuntary trembling movement.

RENAL, THORACIC, AND MEDIASTINAL DISORDERS

Difficulty in micturition - Difficulty with urination or the frequency of.

Urinary frequency - An abnormal frequency of urination.

Urinary incontinence - Involuntary leakage of urine.

REPRODUCTIVE SYSTEM AND BREAST DISORDERS

Dysmenorrhea - A condition marked by painful menstruation.

Premenstrual syndrome - A group of symptoms, including abdominal bloating, breast tenderness, headache, fatigue, irritability, and depression.

Sexual dysfunction - A non-normal, for the individual, behavior or ability to have sex.


RESPIRATORY, THORACIC AND MEDIASTINAL DISORDERS

Choking sensation - A feeling of choking with or without cause.

Dyspnea - Difficulty in breathing, often associated with lung or heart disease and resulting in shortness of breath.

Epistaxis - Nosebleed.

Hyperventilation - Abnormally fast or deep respiration resulting in the loss of carbon dioxide from the blood, thereby causing a decrease in blood pressure and sometimes fainting.

Nasal congestion - A stoppage or restriction of the nasal passage.

Rhinitis - Inflammation of the nasal membranes.

Rhinorrhea - A discharge from the mucous membrane, especially if excessive.

SKIN AND SUBCUTANEOUS TISSUE DISORDERS

Clamminess - Abnormally moist, sticky and cold to the touch.

Pruritus - Severe itching, often of undamaged skin.

Rash - A skin eruption.

Sweating increased - Abnormal increase of perspiration.

Urticaria - A skin condition characterized by welts that itch intensely, caused by an allergic reaction, an infection, or nervous condition.

VASCULAR DISORDERS

Hot flashes - A sudden, brief sensation of heat, often over the entire body, caused by a transient dilation of blood vessels of the skin.

Hypotension - Abnormally low arterial blood pressure.

If you've gotten this far, congratulations! I don't read blogs all the way through most of the time. May I ask, if you know Jesus Christ, please keep me in your prayers... thanks! If you don't, then be sure you know where you are going when you die. I'm not here to make judgments about your choices in life or whatever you do. I care about your soul and the glory of God. Visit my "HOPE" page.

Bible verse of the day: "The words of a whisperer are like delicious morsels; they go down into the inner parts of the body." - Proverbs 26:22

Saturday, January 24, 2009

The Road Back Program Journal

My Road Back Journal

started "The Road Back" program a few days ago because the withdrawal symptoms of tapering the Klonopin are getting to be unbearable. I searched and searched for over a year for help and nothing will do it. Now, I'm trying this program that is supposed to get a person going through benzo withdrawal stabilized in order to start tapering and feeling better while doing so. Today is Saturday, January 24, 2009. I started the program the night of Wednesday, January 21. I'll keep this page updated as a journal as I go through the process, so check back to see if this is a success or not!

The rating of anxiety and insomnia go like this: 1 is unbearable and 10 is no symptoms. When I get to a 7 on both anxiety and insomnia, I move to Step 2 of the Program. So here's Step 1 so far:

DAY 1 - January 21, 2009
Started TRB Program at night as directed, taking 1 Body Calm Supreme and 1 tsp. Essential Protein.

DAY 2 - January 22, 2009
I start my journaling today. WOW! I slept last night except for one bathroom trip! I slept from 11pm to 6:00am and it was a nice, deep sleep. I felt good when I got up; no tight anxiety stomach until about 15 mins. after I was up and around. It started in, but was a little more manageable than normal. Had an "okay" day except when we had to go to the bank. Any little stress in life causes me to have fatigue, tremors, blood sugar problems, etc. It doesn't matter if it is a good stress (i.e. friends coming over) or bad stress (i.e. argument with husband). All stress to my body is the same. My immune system is shot, so I have to take things very slowly and carefully. Part of this program is building the immune system too. RATINGS FOR THE DAY: Sleep from last night = 9, Anxiety for today = 5

DAY 3 - January 23, 2009
Slept terribly last night as usual. What's ommon for me is 5 to 6 hours of interrupted sleep while in pain, heart palpitations, sweating, paranoia, depression, and more. It's so much fun going through these withdrawals! Okay, that was sarcasm! Anyway, I had 6 hours of interrupted sleep last night. Took all the supplements as directed today and had a decent day. My husband asked if I wanted to do something today with him. I can barely get out of my house most of the time, so I was hesitant, but as the day was progressing, I thought, well, we can go take a walk around the block holding hands since the temperature has gone up to a whopping 45 degrees! He took me down to the main street here where the Antique shops are and we walked around and went into an Indonesian store and talked about culture differences and foods there with the owner and a lady from Indonesia (Jack and Rina). Very nice people! I was able to handle about 45 minutes on my feet out of the house and then I could feel myself winding down, needing to be sitting or laying at home. My husband and I went home and later in the evening, our frineds Eric and Mindy came over and we played the DRAWING GAME (that's fun!). Even though this was a good stress, I was able to handle it fine! So day two was a pretty good day. RATINGS FOR THE DAY: Sleep from last night = 4, Anxiety for today = 7